For someone who apparently “never wanted to be a big name pagan”, who barely over a month ago, went into exhaustive detail about how she was “going to be silent for a while” and needed to “focus on something other than Paganism for awhile” —the same Star Foster who has made it a regular habit to whine about how much she’s going to “leave paganism” (like this choice instance on 8 March 2012 —and again, only vaguer, barely more than three months later —unfortunately, it’s harder for me to queue up the others in a basic search, in part cos I forgot the titles to those posts), cos “omgz, peeplz are TEH MEENZ”, apparently wants to make pagan blogging a full time job, and you should pay her for it.
You know, I think a friend of mine said it best (a friend who shall remain nameless, cos if they want to say it publicly, they can say it themself) when they said “she’s the embodiment of everything wrong with the pagan community”.
It’s moments like this that kind of make me glad I don’t want the label of “pagan”, would eagerly divorce myself from it completely if society would let me —but because, as I’ve lamented before, it’s only possible, at best, to 90% divorce the term from myself (fuck you, dictionary), it’s this phoney-baloney woman who really makes me embarrassed to acknowledge that, by certain definitions, I’m pagan.
To be fair, she’s pretty far from the most ethically dubious person in the pagan community I’ve encountered, or even heard of (and for some reason, I know a lot of dirt on a lot of pagans; everything from proposals of money laundering to pay for… I dunno, workshops or something, to stupidly trying to organise a group to steal some-one else’s intellectual property rights out from under them), but that’s not my point, at all. My point is that, for some-one who makes a habit of professing their unhappiness with being a “big name pagan blogger” to large numbers of pagans on the Internet, she sure does have a funny way of proving it, after un-obligating herself to Patheos.
But hey, I get it — maybe it’s just more fun to play the martyr, or something? You know, whine about how bad you’ve got it, but you’re doing it all for us, or some shit, because you’ve convinced yourself that you “have to” take on this great burden for THE WHOLE COMMUNITY!
I’m just so tired of being afraid of her stupid Internet fangirls and white knights, and sitting on my hands and not saying what I feel needs to be said. Star Foster is a cancer. She’s a self-made wannabe martyr, and a mediocre blogger. She has, rather infamously, treated the community she’s somehow both sick of and enamored with as if she’s Kirk Cameron, adopting a façade to do some “investigative journalism” and then posting an exposé. Her integrity is questionable, at best, and she seems to thrive on the drama she can cause, crying foul all the way, attempting to make herself a victim. She’s like a Sharon Osbourne figure, given some semblance of power, for reasons not immediately obvious, in the community she seems interested in, but conducts herself in a manner that has more in common with a complete outsider eager to exploit that community for personal gain –I noticed in her “fund-raiser” that she does say she’s currently employed? The last time Sannion needed a comparable amount of money, he’d been out of work for quite some time, he’s never asked the community to carry his arse as a blogger —and not only can I easily prove that he and I have exchanged far more heated words than Ms Foster and i have (yet we somehow ended up friends, anyway —but it’s not the first time I’ve earned a friendship through heated differences, and probably won’t be the last), but I can very easily say that his bloging is far superior in content and language arts than I’ve ever seen coming from Star Foster.
(ETA) Also note where she points out that this “salary” she’s asking the community to pay her is not a living wage —meaning she’s either going to be keeping her current job, or eventually looking for some other procurement of means to get her bills paid, and call me crazy, but I don’t get the impression that she’s going to be joining the local cock-sucker union to maintain a living income. (/ETA)
(ETA 13 Nov 2012) So, I just took a look at her blog for… Actually for the first time since she quit Patheos. I have issue to take with her statement that ~$1000/month is less income than disability. Maybe that’s true in Canada. Maybe that’s true in California (it’s determined on the state level, and calculated by the statewide cost of living average). That’s just not true in the Midwest, especially not for a single person with no living human dependents (I don’t know how a disability cheque for a single blind person with a seeing-eye dog might look, cos it’s technically a living, non-human dependent, so is a bag of kibble factored in for a dependent or reimbursed through Medicare? I don’t know). How do I know? As I’ve said here before: I’m on disability allowance. I’ve been on disability allowance my entire adult life, and at one time, this was supplemented with work —but since I’ve been completely unable to work (not counting Etsy or writing –which pays dick, by the way, as my Etsy store barely averages me an additional $20/month, over this last year [though in the last six months, that average has been closer to $30/month], and my novels average me less), I have been living on LESS THAN $8000 A YEAR. Star Foster is demanding a “salary” that is significantly more than disability allowance for a Midwest cost of living, and for doing something that she clearly doesn’t bother to fact check when it’s important, but instead aim for “truthiness”. Ah well, I guess it’s nice that her break from Patheos has afforded her the freedom to… Continue to say whatever misinformed, ignorant, or just plain uninteresting crap she’s always said?(/ETA)
My great desire for this coming week is that people can see through her and not give her money. Why finance someone who might just make another (apparently empty) threat to leave paganism the next time she’s criticised, or the next time she feels like stirring the pot and then reacting in disbelief because people doing what people tend to do and reacting to it? Sure, the tumour might be benign, but that’s no reason not to cut it out –cos aside from getting attention, it’s not really doing anything for you, either.
ETA: Also, for some reason, there’s been a lengthy thread about this on the Of Thespiae FB feed.
ETA 13 Nov 2012: Oh boy, the Tumblrsphere tells me she’s got screenshots! What is this, LJDrama, back in ’03? Whoop-dee-shit.